Yellow With Fear. 7 Steps to a Fearless Heart.

                                                          "I'm totally freaking out"

      What is fear? Fear dreads. Fear rests. Fear produces chaos and anxiety.  Fear anticipates trouble, dreading that something bad is going to happen.  Fear corrodes our confidence in God's goodness.  The Bible says "Do Not Fear" but, is it that easy? No.  We are human.  We fear.

     What should we do when we are faced with fear- when we're afraid and worried? 

1. Keep things in perspective. "Isn't life more than food?" Isaiah -6:25. Remember, if God gave you life, He will give you food.

2. Remember how incredibly valuable you are to God. " Look at the birds" Isaiah 6:25.

3. Realize it's counter productive. "Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?" Isaiah 6:27. Can fear solve all your problems? NO!!

4. Trust God to take care of you. "He will CERTAINLY take care of you" Isaiah 6:30.

5. Remember that God already knows what you need. "Your heavenly Father knows". Isaiah 6:32.

6. See God more than anything else. "Seek first His kingdom". Isaiah 6:33.

7. Take one day at a time. " Don't worry about tomorrow". Isaiah 6:34.

Today God said: " Do not fear, for I am with you; do no anxiously look about you, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous hand...Do not fear, I will help you...Do not fear, for you are mine!" (Isaiah 41:10, 13,43:1).

Do not fear sweet cupcake.  I will eat you with kindness :)

Repair me

" It will deminish all aging"
    
     With today's media and it's unforgiving truths of aging leaves me with one question.. who the heck put a time limit on beauty?  Is it me, or is the media stripping us of our natural beauties?  Wrinkle creams, cover ups, anti-aging seriums take us far beyond reality that give us a more youthful, fresh look. However, 12 to 18 hours isn't enough time for me to look like I'm 20 again. 
     
     I could be a "anti-aging" hater but, we were all created to age.  Aging shows wisdom and power, strength and compassion. Just a thought.

They say that behind
every line and wrinkle
there lays a story to be had there.
With all the wrinkles and crinkles
that line her face,
there should be
a couple of novels worth there.

Cupcakes bring out youth :)

twist my tongue :)

 The arduous tounge twister haunts every child who is faced with this question.  My answer is short and sweet:

              If a woodchuck could chuck wood, then he would chuck all the wood.  He would chuck and chuck and chuck and chuck, if a woodchuck could chuck wood. He would then then sell it so he can take Suzie, who sells seashells on the seashore on a date.  He might even double date with Peter Piper who picked a pepper purposely for Penny who ran around the mulberry bush bying boxes before bedtime. :)


Can cupcakes count carousle cakes covered in caramel ??

how do I say this......

Megan, write something about the way we tell people we love them, miss them.  What do words mean anyway?

    Words demand explanation. They require analysis. They are the construction and expression of my thoughts. Of my heart. But they can't describe it. They can't describe any of it. They can't tell you how deep the memories are, or how often we think of them.

    They can't scream what we really want to say. They are the mask of how we really feel and they try to disguise the pain, but someone will strip it away. And someone will make those words worthless.

      So what is a word worth? Nothing... and everything.  What are three words worth? A penny for your thoughts? Sometimes we want our money back.  Love is unrefundable.  But we say them anyway, because you know. You know, more than anyone what they mean. You know when people say I love you, they really mean that those three words can't describe what it is they have.

    I know this boy.  I loved.  I expressed words at the speed of light.  Are you listening? When we say things like "you're amazing", we know or think the word is just a cover; a quick way for me to remember all the things that amaze me about you, a mask for the memories we shared, a disguised version of our adventures together. And I really believe that we know, when we say "I miss you" it's not just that. It's missing every moment.  Ir's missing what your name means to me. It means an alphabet of sounds and letters and words. But none of them really mean anything, because words are based on trust, they rely on how truly and deeply we feel. Remember, always, that they don't mean anything, they are letters and they are constructions, but we deconstruct them every day and we twist them; we manipulate them so that they say what we want them to.

   But no word, no shape, no photograph could ever twist so far that it could begin to explain even a little bit of how I feel.

 

 

 

Words can't explain how bad I want a cupcake right now :)

 

mirror mirror your so pretty.

"The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." - I Samuel 16:7

He told me I was pretty... he was just being nice- Right?

People say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder but, who is the beholder these days? Could it be men? women?  Perhaps the man behind the newspaper in the coffee shop?  I'd like to believe it's God but, why are people judged everyday? How did we become judgers? 

Beauty that is only skin deep will one day disappear. Ugliness is a personal perception, just as beauty lies in the "eyes of the beholder". Real beauty is something that has to be natured and comes from within, for beauty that has endured hardships shines with a distinctive splendor. Someone's perception of morals and values, character and personality are what determines real beauty inner beauty.  It is what is on the inside of you that projects outwardly of self. Accepting yourself and letting your inner beauty come out is part of being beautiful. The recipe for beauty is to have less illusion and more soul, to retreat from the belief of pain or pleasure in the body into the unchanging calm and glorious freedom of spiritual harmony...right?

Okay so that sounds so much easier said then done.  Why is it hard to come to terms with truth? Can we all come together as beautiful people and be content with "skinny", "tall", "short", overweight" or covered in freckles?  Sure.  But I believe we need to see the beauty in us before discovering the beauty in others.  We are our own worst judgers.  We pick and scrape at our vanity scars not realizing that we are were made by an Almighty God.  A God that makes no mistakes.  Do I joke about my weight because I want to beat people to the punch? YES!! Some of my friends can't stand when I do that to myself but, in a wierd way, I become content with letting people know that I know about my weight problem.  All I have to do is change my eating habits.  I don't eat a lot but it's what I eat that hurts me.  Food doesn't judge me. I don't suffer from image because I have other attributes that make me beautiful.  However, I try to be hard on myself before others can judge me.  Make sense?

Okay, enough about me.  Lets talk about you.  What are your insecurities? Are these reasonable? Are you trying to beat others to the punch so they don't have time to judge you, because after all, you are your ultimate judger.  What hurts more, you judging yourself? Or others judging you? For me its myself, because I do it everyday.  I know the people who love me, who I see everyday are not judging me.  They see my sense of humor and my dangerously blue eyes as beautiful (hehe).  A good friend told me today that she thinks of me as a role model because of the way I teach.  Wow.  So, the only beholder I need to concentrate on is my God.  My... beautiful God who, made me beautiful- who made YOU beautiful.

Our world is filled with people who focus more on what people look like on the outside than who they are inside. I'm guilty of that myself.  Sometimes its consiously and sometimes it's not.  We shouldn't be too hard on ourselves for judging.  We are human you know.  We do want to think that we look better sometimes.  We do stare what is not the norm. We need to begin judging people more for who they are.  We must get out there and let that inner beauty shine as bright as what's on the outside. Every man and woman created by our Beholder can be beautiful and it all begins by believing in your own beauty. Think of your body as the vehicle to your dreams.

Love it. Honor it. Respect it. Fuel it.
Take the time to give thanks for all your blessings. Remember that your mind, body and soul is the instrument of your life, not just an ornament.

hmm.. I would like a beautiful pink cupcake, frosted with confidence and filled with love. :)

No speeding.

I think I'll have the pink one...no.... yellow...no..........blue....wait............pink, I'll have the pink one.


We didn't choose to be born , but when we were, we suddenly became decision makers. There is a great power in being able to make choices in life. However, should we live to make choices? Or choose to live one day at a time? I'm constantly faced with decisions. Sometimes I make the right choice and sometimes I make the wrong choice. The extreme thing about making the wrong choice is facing the consequences that follow. Some people (like myself) forget to think things through. Is it ok to make the wrong choice in life? Sure. How else would we learn life's lessons. How are we humbled by making only the right choices? Making a decision is tough, mind altering, tragic, exciting and risky. It's like skydiving, as your plummiting to earth, all these life changing thoughts are scuttling through your head, and in the end, it can be good or bad. Either way, it was life changing and you learned from it. Learing is something that noone can take away from you. It humbles you, it teaches you and it free's you.

Can one decision make you or break you? For sure. But can you always turn from it, make up for it or change your mind? Not all the time. However, you can realize, understand, gain knowledge and strength from it. Changes do come with consequences, but without the committment to change our lives and all the consequences that go with that decision, the change will not take place. Don't settle for whats good, strive for whats best and whats best for you. Cease the opportunity for determination. It's never too late to be happy. It's never too late to make a decision for a better life. It's never too late to live a more fulfilling life. See your choice as a change, not destruction. Change can be scary but can settle your soul. Strap on your "life change" seatbelt and hold on. It's gonna be a wild ride. But DO NOT keep your hands inside the vehicle, for everything the light touches is yours.

Choose the fast lane, and buckle your cupcakes.

your sugar spilt.

" I loved you then, and I love you now."


My sweet.

I can no longer hold your fire. Tick tock goes ten years- then you

rewound time for me. You lingered in my senses. Love waits for me in another season.



I predicted a lifetime of you- two years a lifetime. My future a lifetime. You, a lifetime.



When we were young,

You smelt like sunshine's dust when you swung me under the moon.

You tasted like shooting stars which shine from the heavens- The same stars give me light.

You felt like a wave which, unforgivingly crashes against the oceans rock.



You-Crashing in to me.



With my breath to you I say- Loving you was something sweet. Satisfied my soul.

But loving you now is ...........



Words can't explain. I can't explain.

What is your verdict?

Until then...

Goodnight my friend. Goodbye my love.







No cupcake tonight.. until you come back with one.